The Reason : Hoobastank

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I want to be a different me.

I wish I could forget what happened.

I wish I could believe i am his reason to change.

skin

oh he's under my skin

just give me something to get rid of him

he used me again. its been a few weeks and he still hasn't talked to me. he told me he would. why is it that no matter what happens he can always have me. i wish there was some magic way to make it so i would not love him. so i could forget that when he looks at me he warms me from head to toe. that when he lightly takes my hand i melt into an immediate puddle of the person i am. and most of all i wish i could forget that his kisses reach into my soul and capture it for hours.

i wish i had someone to talk to about him. friends say i told you so. mom gives me that look. i wish she was still around to talk to. she was the only one i could call and cry or talk for hours. its hard to not have a support system.

oh he's under my skin

Love

Today is valentines day and i cant help but think about old loves and he popped up instantly. Why does he stay in my mind when all I want is for him to leave and never come back?

Is it because all I really want is for things to be different? For it to have worked out this last try? For him to see that I was there for it all, the being kicked out, the loss, the smiles, the laughter. I was there, with him every step of the way.

So I guess what I am really wondering is: Did I ever take anyone for granted like he did? And if he realizes what he did, will I take another chance? Am I really that cruel to myself? Will the bleeding stop if he realizes?